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Unreal Dreams

That early morning thought and the dream I just had were exchanging notes. Or perhaps were contributing to each other’s entertainment. Much to my misery.

Just the other day, in a casual water cooler conversation, I exclaimed how I do not remember my dreams. And TBH, I don’t very often. And that changed this morning.

I’m not sure how she ended up there. While I had a completely random small talk with an old batch mate and she popped right there. It was like when Leo’s wife pushes her way into his dream in Inception. Only it wasn’t scary. And she wasn’t trying to kill me or herself.

We talked like we’ve always done in my head. We laughed over the silliness that the world is and how we are the smart ones figuring things out. It felt like we both had each other. Like that time. And that time returned somehow. It felt good to have her back.

Waking up with that feeling and for a split second actually thought it was real. Real as it can get until the light peeping from the window pushes in the reality of the day.

I didn’t wanted to wake up. I wanted to go back to that conversation. To the long walk. To the silly fights. To being happy. To being angry at someone. To just go back.

The voices in the head tell me it’s morning. But I intend to head back to the night.

But it’s unreal they say.

Is it not good ? I replied.

Pulled over the blanket and went back to sleep. It was a weekend after all.

The silent goodbye….

The silent goodbye..

Reaching out to the stars…

Aspiring to make them my own …

Plans, which kept pushing me higher…

Dreams that propelled me to imaginary heights..

Only to find it all taken away..

Only to find, it all to be an illusion..

And now, when the lightening of realization stuck upon..

And the walls made of dreams have come crashing down..

A free-fall is what it has ensued..

Falling down the abyss of another uncertainty… silently..

I’ll miss the star, the only star..

But maybe some dreams are meant to be dreams…

Dreams which you aspire..Which you chase…

Only to find.. Those were never yours..

The free-fall continues..

Silently bidding the star, a good bye…

Wake me up, when September ends

“Wake me up when september ends” blurts out from my phone in the form of my alarm, irrespective of whether i was dreaming of playing with the Green Day or just some random stuff.

Mornings are all about making a fresh start, but the world that we are part of rarely give us a chance to do that. Before going to sleep, we end up calculating the number of hour’s we may get to sleep. Sleep is considered so unproductive by us that if given a choice e may resort to some other activity other than that. Although, when we wake up, the story is so different. The snoozing of the alarm clock makes us think, “if only I would have slept earlier” but all wishes don’t come true. And this alarm won’t even make your dreams get completed, forget about getting them fulfilled.

Wishes, dreams and expectations. One just can’t get rid of all these. They seem to follow us wherever we go, even more than the hutch pug. But the hutch pug actually followed for good reasons, but these three are two-edged swords. Just in order to fulfill them, people go the wrong way. They even start expecting a lot more from all quarters. More often than not, these fail to match the expectations. And it hurts, pretty badly.

This October, I’ll try to get rid of some of them. expectations are something that are going to get stuck each time you try to get rid of it, yet that is something I’m going to ‘not give any importance’ from now on. All those laziness for doing what I wanted to, take decisions that I might be neglecting for a long time,  take initiatives, convert opportunities, do things that I am supposed to do and not be my on obstacle in stopping myself from doing that.

I may have waited for September to end, but won’t let October get the better of you. Even though this month is credited for being the month when i was born, yet i won’t have any mercy on it.

October, here I come.

This post is a part of WOW Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda

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